Sunday, July 20, 2008

Burdens or Blessings?

You ever have one of those days where nothing goes right? Or maybe, it lasts beyond a 24 hour period to a week...a month...or even a year or longer. A couple of years ago, my wife and I got a long hard dose of this experience. Let me take you back to when it all began, Memorial Day Weekend 2005, early Saturday morning at my dad's house. My wife and I had loaded up our luggage, including our one and a half year old Brittany Spaniel and Sharpei-Lab mix, and we headed west toward my mom's house, which was about 15 miles away. I had the lame brain idea of letting our Brittany ride in the bed of the pickup, after all, our Blue Heelers did it all time growing up; plus, I reassured my wife I'd drive slowly. Well, that didn't stop him from breaking his leg as he crashed down on the pavement a few miles from my dad's place. This incident resulted in several pricey vet visits, including once surgery and weeks of recovery. It was a long 10 weeks. To add to the excitement, we also discovered our home had a horrible gas leak, and tree fell over in our yard and took with it some sort of power lines. But to put the cherry on top, one day my wife and I noticed our other dog was walking funny. We took her to the vet only to discover she had the worse case of hip displasia the vet had ever seen in a dog that young....and it was in both hips. Yep, you guessed, two more surgeries. Now, I know many of you (assuming many people read this blog) have the same thought as my dad and brother, "It's a dog. Just get a new one." But, if you love dogs like my wife and I, you'd understand. I said all that, simply to say, we had a bad year. Lots of unforeseen expenses.

Well, the Lord saw us through and provided as He always does. When the "crisis" is over, I am quite ashamed at my little faith. So it has been a couple years since this series of unfortunate events, but my wife and I come full circle. Lately it seems that there is one thing to do after another, and it always cost money. And on top of that, my wife is transitioning from graduate school to her new job, which means at least 1 month without pay. OUCH! As some of you know, my wife recently gave birth to a beautiful baby boy in January. So, I don't know if this expense counts as it is something most new parents experience. There are diapers, doctor's visits, hospital bills, child care, and much much more. But let me list some other things that have occurred since January. My wife informed me she was in dire need of new clothes. Now, this was something we couldn't foresee. The maternity clothes were too big, but her pre-pregnancy clothes were still too small. No big deal. But what surprised me the most were her shoes. I couldn't believe she went so long without buying new ones. They were in such pathetic condition, we couldn't even donate them. A homeless person wouldn't even want these shoes. So we bought her new shoes. Well, I too needed new shoes. But not just tennis shoes, but also dress shoes. Let me move on to our vehicles. Not only have I knocked off the spoiler and tore off some molding on our fairly new Toyota Matrix, but recently my wife pull up over a curb while parking. We traded vehicles that day and when I backed it out, it almost tore the entire front end off. So we'll have to get that fixed. Then, the other day, I went out to my pickup and it wouldn't start....the battery was dead. So, I had to go spend almost a hundred bucks on a new battery this weekend. On top of that we keep getting medical bills that we thought we had paid off. But, again, to add the cherry on top, our kitchen cabinets fell off the wall the other day. I chuckle in disbelief when I think about it. So, I have a guy coming out to give me an estimate on that. Additionally, we are planning on moving in a few months, and the house needs a little lift before we sell.

I said
all that to share with you this thought. Early one morning, I was sitting on my Oklahoma State University park bench in my front yard with my son. It was such a beautiful morning. My son was calm and content, so I decided to send up a little prayer to God. As I was praying, I guess the Holy Spirit moved me thank God for all the blessings he has given us - the house, the cars, the dogs, my wife, my son, etc. These are the blessing I have often found myself complaining about. I realized that God has blessed me with so much, that it is hard sometimes giving those blessing their due attention in order take care of them. Ironically, I still pray for more. That particular morning, I found a new appreciation and outlook regarding my "burdens." These kinds of burdens are simply a reminder to me that I am blessed beyond what I deserve. God is Good.

7 comments:

  1. Hey, Josh - I'm just one of the teeming masses who read your blog. (I could relate to your sidebar on "many of you.")

    Reading through your hit list from two or three years ago, and then the last few months, it made me think of a song. If you've never heard Allen Levi's album, "Talking with Tyler," I highly recommend it. What could be better than a talented Christian singer/songwriter with insightful perspectives on life interacting with his dog, Tyler. The song that particularly came to mind was "People Things."

    Keep on sloggin' and bloggin', hoss!

    ReplyDelete
  2. You know the little song Amanda sings to your precious baby? "My God is so Big" . . . his love is bigger, his knowledge, his blessings, the list goes on and on!
    I am thankful to God that you see His hand in your lives so well!

    ReplyDelete
  3. I think it is cool my entry remined people of cool songs. :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. Thank you for you comment about ScreamFree. I do do have the feeling that if my kids behave that others will see me as a good parent. It seem really selfish, when I look at it that way. Something else for me to think about.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Josh,

    I listened to that album this week, after commenting on it here. The song I really had in mind was "I'd Rather be a Dog than a Dude Like You," but "People Things" is very good food for thought for all of us. And, speaking of cool songs...

    Anna, I'll bet you would appreciate and enjoy a song called "Momnipotent" by Nancy White from her album, "Songs for Weary Parents." And I agree - ScreamFree living rocks!

    ReplyDelete
  6. i have to tell you brother, that i love the faith you have in our amazing god. and like you we too have come across many expenses and have managed to pull through each and every one of them and i fully believe that god has helped us to do so! i thank him every night for what he has given us and i love that your faith makes my faith stronger!! i love you so much!

    ReplyDelete
  7. and by the way... this actually made me cry!!! what a sap i am.. or is just post-partum motherhood?!?! hahahaha

    ReplyDelete